*sniff*

Call me sentimental, I don't care. But I really do miss blogging here. I mean, I like my new blog and all. When you get right down to it, it's just different layouts and URLs, but the content is pretty much the same since I'm still the one writing it, but... *sigh* I really really liked this blog.

This blog and I have been through a lot, after all. It's the very first blog I've made, and I'm glad to have been able to keep it for 4 years (Waw tagal na!). Its 4th anniversary is around two weeks from now (May 6). And I miss having numbers as the filename of my entries. I like being able to keep track of the no. of entries I have that way. Of course, I can still change the URLs of the individual posts I have in my new blog to numbers, but it just won't be the same.

*heavy sigh* Change is hard, yeah? Even though I've adjusted to writing entries in my new blog, this one's layout and interface makes me so nostalgic, it reminds me of all those times that I tried to write entries, but couldn't because I was either too emotional, or that I didn't have enough time. I like the colors of this blog better, too. And yes, the new blog's colors are also up to me, but making that an extension of this blog seems weird and somewhat wrong. What's the point of making a new blog when you're just going to do exactly the same thing you did with your old blog, right?

Gah, I didn't realize until now that even from inanimate objects like these, it can be hard to move away from. I was browsing through my old entries earlier, and I felt just like how I do when browsing through my old class pictures. I feel sad that I won't be able to make new memories with the same people, and in the same way. Of course, I can still write in here, just like what I'm doing now, but it feels weird as well, because if I keep posting entries here anyway, then my new main blog would completely lose its purpose. But then...

I really miss this. I miss these colors. I miss this font. I miss changing the colors of some words, and finding which color looks nicest on this background. I miss blogging here. It was really fun. Not just because I was able to write what I want to say, but I really enjoyed the act of blogging itself--logging in, clcking on "Post New Entry", inserting HTML tags to have just the right spacing, and then uploading pictures in Photobucket and hotlinking them, adjusting their size... Am I crazy to miss these things? I do the same thing with my new blog anyway, but in the new blog, since it's more hi-tech, I don't need to hotlink to Photobucket anymore. And the archiving scheme is different, and I can no longer count the entries simply by looking at the Permalink URL.

It's sad to think that this will all be gone soon. Deep down, I'm still hoping that it's all a lie. In case it is, and this blog still exists after December 2008, even if I have a lot of entries in my new blog by then, I might still come back here. I don't know, I've always been one to prefer the familiar over the unfamiliar, the original over the re-make, the first I've known over the ones I encounter later. I know that's probably unfair to the latter ones, but I can't help it. The feeling is different when I'm blogging here. Somehow, I feel more like myself.

Having a new blog almost makes me feel like I have a new life. But... I don't want a new life. I want this. I want old, comfortable, we've-been-through-thick-and-thin this.

I really miss blogging here.