I've already told you about how people always change once they're in a relationship with someone--more specifically, how I hate that certain change in people. Obviously, I'm one of those single people who have friends with boy/girlfriends, whose boy/girlfriends I'm not really friends with. Anyway, one of the changes I mentioned (I think) is how my friends who are 'attached', no longer have any time for me (and our other single friends) anymore.

Maybe I'm being selfish, no, I'm sure I'm being selfish, but it's really depressing, when you're good friends with someone, and you share a lot of stuff with each other, but once he/she has a boy/girlfriend, the things you share suddenly aren't so special anymore, because there's somebody else involved, and even worse, that somebody else suddenly comes first, because he/she is more important to your friend.

Let me put it this way: Last night was the Christmas Party/Reunion of me and my friends from high school. For some reason, nearly all of them are part of a couple, and have brought their girl/boyfriends with them. I met a number of them (the gfs &bfs, if not all), and I guess they're all okay. I didn't not like any of them, if that's what you think matters, but haven't I already said that my issues are about the relationships themselves and not with the people my friends have relationships with?

Anyway, I distinctly remember that last year, there were two of us who brought cakes (it's a pot-luck thing). The same goes for this year too. I was supposed to bring cheesecake, but fate had it that the bake shop was out of cheesecake, and the sales person recommended me to buy the same cake I'd brought last year. So I did. And so did the other person. But that's where the similarity of situation ends.

Last year, when people suddenly started looking for dessert, (at around 10:00 PM) my friend who brought one of the cakes, looked for me specifically, so that when the cake box was opened, I would be the first one to taste the cake that he brought. The same rule applied to him, for the cake that I brought. This year though, my friend had his girlfriend with him, and because she had to leave early because her house was quite far from where we were, the cake that he brought was taken out of the refrigerator at around 8:00 PM, and immediately sliced, so she could take a piece home with her. And then they left; together, because it would be dangerous if she'd gone home alone at that time.

I understand it completely. It is the practical thing to do. It is your responsibility, after all, as a boyfriend, to take your girlfriend back to her house when she needs to go home from a party you invited her to. And it would be weird if your own girlfriend didn't get a piece of the cake that you brought. But still...

He didn't get back right away. Not when we later took out the cake that I brought, and had no choice but to eat and share with other people in the party who were getting hungry as there was hardly any food left. Not when the friends that I invited came, and went. And not when it was time for me myself to leave.

I ate some of the cake that he brought. Not that he was there when I did, so he probably wouldn't know. I must say, it certainly was better than the cake last year (he admitted anyway that the cake last year was too grainy), not that I was able to tell him that because he wasn't there anyway. I remember that last year, he said that when he brings that kind of cake again, we'd talk of how its taste improved, etc. Obviously, that didn't happen. And it probably never will, considering the next time he probably brings that kind of cake, there's someone else whose opinion matters more to him.

I'm pretty sure this isn't jealousy (if that's what you're thinking). It's probably as immature though. It is just cake after all. But then, it's more what the cake symbolizes that changed, and that's why I feel so sad. The cake thing was our thing (well, maybe more just my thing, because I'm the one who really loves cake and he just so happened to have a mom who bakes a lot). But now I guess we can't have "our" stuff anymore, because he already has those with someone else.

I wonder, if there are people who also think that when they take a chance and tell their friend they've fallen in love with them, their risking losing not only their friendship with that particular friend, but also with their other friends, whom they used to treat equally, but now only second to the one they love. A lot of people lose their old friends once they get in a relationship. One of my friends is always complaining how this person who used to call/send her a text message every night seemed to suddenly have vanished, right after informing her that she just had a boyfriend. Now, she feels like they barely know each other.

Geez, this was supposed to be a short rant, but I guess I really can't keep myself from talking. I just don't think I can stress enough just how much I hate change.